Tread softly, lest ye drown in the depths of my insanity........

Hmmm...Seems like Sahil and Hems have been in deep thought for a while now..

Firstly, to Sahil,
"Oye Dumps, don't worry too much man. I feel the same way and technically, I have already graduated! Man, am I gald I am still at uni. Thing is though, I don't think many people ever know exactly what they want to do and how they are going to achieve it. Most people take what life throws at them and carve out a path. I talk with some of my older friends and I realise that as far as being confused goes, Welcome to the Gang!! Most of us are stronger and smarter than we realise and eventually, we will find our roads to travel. So relax. And as for life, i quite like this:

All life is an experiment. - Ralph Waldo Emerson "

To Hems,

" Man. I get where you are coming from. All I can say is, be who you are. I have always believed that there is absolutely nothing to be gained in putting on a mask. Sooner or later, one is found out. And if one is'nt, the maintainence of the pretece takes its toll. As most people I know will vouch (well, I jolly well hope so anyways!!), I do have the tag of being frank to the point of rudeness. But then, its what some people love about me. The fact that I say what is in my head and heart and consequences be damned. Then again, it is one of the biggest reasons some people cannot stand me. Thats fine. I don't expect everyone i ever meet to like me. But one thing I can say for sure is that it is very very very rare that people don't know exactly where I stand. The person people know is the real me. Sure, they don't know my life history but they don't need to.

Sometimes I see friends of mine be tactful and diplomatic and i wonder that perhaps it would be better if i was a bit more diplomatic. But then I see them get dragged into doing things they do not want to and saying things they do not mean, all because it is now too late to state how they truly feel. Life is tough enough as it is and as far as I am concerned, making it more difficult by trying to please everyone is pointles. No one can please everyone all the time.

I don' think this makes me an uncaring or selfish person. Far from it, I feel, and hopefully, so do others, that I am. Rude maybe, frank definetely but uncaring, I hope not.

Someone said that to enjoy life, one must first be happy with one's self and then only worry about other people's happiness. And though it sounds extremely selfish and arrogant, I feel it is true. It is very difficult for a sad man to make others happy. Not impossible mind you, for I know people who achieve that. But pretty damn difficult. But then, they say also that making other people happy makes you happy. Also true. It is all so confusing eh?

I suppose at this point some people will probably think I am a complete and utter bleep bleep bleep. Fair enough. All I am saying is that whether you are yourself or whether you put on a front, there will always be people who will dislike you or want you to be different. The way I figure it, they might as well dislike me for who I am then who I pretend to be. And if they like me, I would hope they like me for who I am. Anything i achieve, I want to be able to say that I did it and not one of my many multiple adopted personalities.

I am also neither that stupid nor arrogant to belive that my way of life is perfect. Maybe, later, I will be the one left wondering. But there is no harm in trying. If it works, great, and if it does'nt, other paths will be discovered.

People have liked you for who you are. They will continue to like you and no doubt, so will others. Be not, what others want you to be. Be your own man, my friend. Stand tall and be counted. Know that you have friends who prefer you as you are and may this give you the belief and strength in your ways. "

Thus endeth the sermon................